day246.

Lord, help me find the way.

Today hasn't been the best day for me, but I'm not asking for any sort of pity party. Everyone has discouraging days. It's just part of life.
Nothing particularly bad happened. Just one of those days where happiness seems to be scurrying away everywhere I turn.
I went to church and that of course was the best part of my day. I got to come home to a wonderful family and have a delicious dinner. I went to ward prayer for a bit.
Now I'm in my room and all I want to do is go to a recording studio with endless resources and instruments and jam my life away.
I've done a great deal of thinking today about some of the dreams I used to have, and then realized I still have them, and it made me sad that they're so far out of my reach at this point.

I know I've already posted this song but I can't stop listening to it. I didn't really LOVE it the first few times I heard it, but I am obsessed with the lyrics and harmonies and the way the song grows. It has so much feeling and I wish I had written it.

hello, my old heart how have you been?

are you still there inside my chest?

I've been so worried you've been so still

barely beating at all

oh, don't leave me here alone

don't tell me that we've grown

for having loved a little while

oh, I don't want to be alone

I want to find a home

and I want to share it with you

hello, my old heart it's been so long

since I've given you away

and every day I add another stone

to the walls I built around you

to keep you safe

hello, my old heart how have you been?

how is it, being locked away?

don't you worry

in there you're safe

and it's true you'll never beat,

but you'll never break

because nothing lasts forever

some things aren't meant to be

but you'll never find the answers

until you set your old heart free