my place.

I guess I can tell you all why I love the place where I live so much. it's a duplex in north provo in a neighborhood of weird, quirky duplexes. ours was completely touched up before we moved in: new floors, carpet, paint, and even furniture. i have a small room but at least i know that no one has slept on my mattress but me! i have a comfy, spinny chair to sit at while i study. i live on the top floor with my best friend Kelsey who i share a bathroom with. then Amanda and Rebecca live in the basement (same size as our upstairs). the main floor has a living room, then up a couple stairs is the kitchen, dining room, and our very own laundry room. it's wonderful! plus we live in an awesome neighborhood full of awesome people (who have vending machines and motorcycles and hot tubs on the side of their houses). anyway, here are a few pictures of my favorite parts of our house!

ludovico einaudi. my studying music.

this would be heaven for me. if only.

a clear conscience, a clear path.

I feel so good right now. I haven't felt this great in a very long time. My life is so perfect!

i'm going to start blogging for real this time... even if no one follows me. 'cause i don't keep a journal, and typing is way easier than writing for me.

tonight i went to the rooftop concert in downtown provo and saw the vibrant sound with imagine dragons. it was way fun because my roommate's boyfriend was the rapper/guitarist for the vibrant sound and i had no idea he was that talented!

i'm way happy with where i am right now. i live with the most fun girls that i get along with so well. my best friend understands me more than anyone ever has before and she helps me get through everything. i finally know what i want to study in school and i love it. the love of my life comes home in less than 3 months. i live in an amazing, nice house and i have so many things i love. my family cares about me so much even when i get too busy to call all the time. my mom thinks about me and texts me everyday and i don't know what i'd do without she and my dad. also, i love my new ward so far. and... life is good.

you're an idiot

So I work at a music store in Utah Valley. Customers are always asking my opinion, my advice, or asking me practical questions. But sometimes they're just stupid, I'm sure we all know that. This is the most recent story.

Today a family was looking at violin sheet music, and the mom asked me if certain books that came with CDs came without CDs. I looked at the back of the book and read out loud to her "Parts not sold separately."
She then said, "So you have to buy them together?"
Ummm.... YEP.

Ethan Killian Photography #2

My second photo shoot with Ethan Killian!

Josh Wilson

This is a life-sized painting done of me as Snow White by friend and artist Josh Wilson. This was finished in December.

Ethan Killian Photography

These are a few pictures from a photoshoot I had a couple weeks ago in SLC.

i have great friends

lucky me!

Professional photographer Scott Jarvie took my pictures on Monday. They were taken around Aspen Loop in Provo Canyon. He is amazing, that is all I can say. It was so much fun! http://photos.jarviedigital.com/

one of the best things in the world:

satisfying a craving. I don't like tomatoes like at all, but my parents cut some up and for some reason the smell got to me and I really wanted to make a BLT. so I did and it is awesome.

late night thoughts.

So I wasn't going to turn on my computer when I got home tonight because it's late and I have to wake up early... and I haven't posted in forever.
But I just have a lot of thoughts kajumbled in my head. Lots of people say that the people in your life are there for a reason, whether they become your best friend or you only talk to them a couple times. Tonight is one of those times that makes sense... I was with a friend tonight just talking and we have never really talked before. Also, I'm on pain meds because of getting my wisdom teeth out, so I felt really boring and out of it, and I didn't realize until I left that a lot of the things we talked about helped me to think more clearly... while also making things more confusing. Since we'd never talked before, we talked about pretty much everything... and that always opens up new perspectives for me.
I just hope that I can, sometime soon, decide and be sure what my own perspectives are, so that I can be able to live my life in the best way for me. So that I can build my experiences off of each other in a way that makes sense. So that I can learn and grow and be who I want to be, whoever that is, and so that I can get to have the things I want to have in my life.
It's late and I'm still on meds and so I don't know if any of this will make sense the next time I read it. But I just felt like I had something, or nothing, to say.

-Ash

PS
Facebook is stupid and I hate it.