late night thoughts.

So I wasn't going to turn on my computer when I got home tonight because it's late and I have to wake up early... and I haven't posted in forever.
But I just have a lot of thoughts kajumbled in my head. Lots of people say that the people in your life are there for a reason, whether they become your best friend or you only talk to them a couple times. Tonight is one of those times that makes sense... I was with a friend tonight just talking and we have never really talked before. Also, I'm on pain meds because of getting my wisdom teeth out, so I felt really boring and out of it, and I didn't realize until I left that a lot of the things we talked about helped me to think more clearly... while also making things more confusing. Since we'd never talked before, we talked about pretty much everything... and that always opens up new perspectives for me.
I just hope that I can, sometime soon, decide and be sure what my own perspectives are, so that I can be able to live my life in the best way for me. So that I can build my experiences off of each other in a way that makes sense. So that I can learn and grow and be who I want to be, whoever that is, and so that I can get to have the things I want to have in my life.
It's late and I'm still on meds and so I don't know if any of this will make sense the next time I read it. But I just felt like I had something, or nothing, to say.

-Ash

PS
Facebook is stupid and I hate it.