day60.

• People I saw: Shalem, Reuel, Shaun, Terra Otterson, Ryan Otterson, Kyler Mitchell, Matt Abernathy, Kelsey Hermansen.
• Things I did: I slept in til 6 on accident! Luckily it wasn't any later than that. So I did the route, came home and showered, went to work, went to choir, went back to work, took Tasha to the orthodontist, ate dinner and stuff, then I went to Jazzy's open mic and played! I wish I wouldn't have signed up as number 10.. I didn't go on til after 10:30 pm! So next time I'll sign up like 3rd! Kyler let me play his Martin, it was awesome. Terra, Ryan, and my little sister Tasha came to listen to me which was super cool. Then I met Matt Abernathy in person for the first time! He happened to recognize me in a crowded dark room and came to say hi, it was random but cool! Then I went home but couldn't find my phone anywhere so I went back to Jazzy's and there it was on the floor. I'm so lucky I found it in one piece.
• Something I learned: Well I've slowly learned this. I am not quick to judge anyone for anything because every time you say a word, think a thought, do anything, it's the result of a million things you've seen, heard, said, learned, and done for your whole life. It's what other people have done to you. What you've seen people do to other people and how you've perceived it. I have no idea of every single thing every other person has experienced. I just have to trust there's a reason why they are they are, why they do the things they do. Cause I hope they give me the same thought.
• Something I appreciated: my friends and sister for waiting forever to hear me play.
• Favorite text I got: "you're beautiful, go do great things ;)" from Sam Pace.
• Song you should listen to:

day59.

• People I saw: Tanner (favorite cousin!) Shalem, Reuel, etc.
• Things I did: route, English and Math, practiced piano (freak I'm getting good), choir, went to the office for a bit, went home to finally eat. My mom made a huge plate of my favorite cookies and gave me a clock to add to my collection :) she loves me so much! Later I went to Spanish class. Got an A on my test! Oh and this picture is me being bored in my Spanish class. I had my head on the table and remembered I hadn't taken a picture yet and I was too lazy to move my phone any further away to take one. So, you get my eye.
• Something I learned: I have so many amazing things in store for me. I've never been more excited in my life.
• Something I appreciated: cookies! (peanut butter blossoms)
• Favorite text I got: "Ash Im sorry i didnt text you more its just hard for me to while Im working, i want you to know that i seriously do care about you and I Am always here for you any time you ever need anything! if you are ever up here let me know and lets hang out and chat or whatever i really enjoy your company Haha Im remembering our adventure to draper together and how we stopped by the graveyard :) Hahaha, and hey i dont want it to sound like ill only be a good friend when its convenient cuz thats gay, good friends would make time for a weekend trip to st george to cheer up ash and get her mind off of things :) Haha plus i miss you and plus i could use a couple days away from the snow....." from Jeremy Phelps. Hahaha I LOVE him! And by the way, we stopped at the graveyard cause he wanted to pick a random headstone and pay a tribute to the person buried there. I think his name was Forest or something... we left him a leaf we found.
• Song you should listen to:

day58.

• People I saw: Keith, Osiel, Reuel, Shaun, Gabby, Carissa and everyone at FHE.
• Things I did: I did the route, went to work, went home and ate lunch, went to school to find choir canceled, looked at iPhone plans with Desi, went to Costco with my family, moved some more stuff, made some more crafty thingies, Skyped with Corbin, went to FHE where we played human battleship (blast!) then came home. If you're wondering why I'm closing my eyes in the picture it's because I liked my eye makeup. I used oranges and reds trying to create sunset-ish colors.
• Something I learned: I'm better off this way.
• Something I appreciated: My support group of friends and family. It's absolutely amazing.
• I'm adding a new one -
• Favorite text I got: from Karsen "I miss you" simple as that.
• Song you should listen to:

day57.

• People I saw: My grandparents!
• Things I did: The route, church, ward prayer. And dinner and stuff. Oh I also started doing some of my projects!
• Something I learned: I care too much. (working on that).
• Something I appreciated: my sweet Mommy. She is constantly willing to do things for me to make me happy or to help me with anything. I love her so much.
• Song you should listen to:

day56.

• People I saw: Reuel, Aaron Judd, Bryce Lewis and his wife Chelsea, Andrew Mitchell and his wife Emily, and Jeff Crockett.
• Things I did: After I did the route (my mom decided to come with me today) we came home and I went back to sleep til noon. Then I got ready and took my little sister Tasha around town running errands so I can make some cool things. We also went around taking fun pictures. We came home and ate dinner then I went to Reuel's house to do math homework. Haha yep on a Saturday. Then I met Aaron and friends over at Dixie Bowl and played a game. We then played ninja in the parking lot.. haha. It was fun.
• Something I learned: Everyone is worth spending time with if they treat you like you're worth their time.
• Something I appreciated: Tasha. I love that we like to do the same things.
• Song you should listen to:

day55.

• People I saw: Keith, Reuel, Amanda White, all the people from choir.
• Things I did: the route, then work, then I went to my piano performance class. After that I came home and did stuff. In the evening I went to my choir concert then to Dairy Queen.
• Something I learned: Boys in St. George suck (for the most part). But seriously. One of the reasons I miss Provo...
• Something I appreciated: Contact lenses. Thaaank yooou to whoever invented them.
• Song you should listen to:

day54.

• People I saw: Josh Bushnell.
• Things I did: sub paper route, math class, practiced piano, choir, Spanish test/class, and basically just been feeling really crappy all day from a combination of illness, exhaustion, frustration, and all kinds of overload on the mind right now.
• Something I learned: sometimes I have to learn things the hard way.
• Something I appreciated: hugs.
• Song you should listen to:

day53.

Sorry I was so worn out yesterday I forgot to do this. Luckily, I did remember to take a picture of myself yesterday. Unfortunately, it's hideous.

• People I saw: Keith.
• Things I did: I woke up really early and did the route again, went to work to get some more training, went to choir, had my piano lesson, then went home and took a 2 hour nap. Then I woke up and attempted to do homework and whatever else.
• Something I learned: People suck.
• Something I appreciated: My bed.
• Song you should listen to:

day52.

• People I saw: Tyler Nebeker plus the usual.
• Things I did: Well for those of you who haven't gathered from my previous posts, my family and I just moved into a new house. I forgot to mention this yesterday, but it was my second time using a new shower and unfortunately I'm not used to its slippery-ness. So I slipped, and fell out of the shower. Yes, out. I went through the shower curtain, bringing it down with me, and landed hitting my spine on the edge of the toilet. That about sums up my clumsiness in one instance.
• Anyway. Today I woke up at 5 for my first day of 10 subbing Tony's paper route. After that I went straight to class, and went to classes until 2. Then I went home and took a shower (I didn't fall this time!) then I tried to do some Spanish homework and take a nap but it was too noisy in my house for me to fall asleep. At 5:15 I went to my Spanish class. I left early so that I could get to the Red Cliffs Care Center by 6:45. Apparently my sisters, brother-in-law and I were signed up to sing and play piano for the old folks (no one decided to inform me of this until I got home at 2 today). That was super awesome though, I love visiting elderly people. They're so sweet. So then I came home and helped unload more stuff from our old house and now I'm finally relaxing on my bed!
• Something I learned: I am not afraid to love again. I can't wait.
• Something I appreciated: My dad. He really is the hardest worker. Even with a bad knee, he's been moving furniture in and out of his trailer like crazy. He's never been a lazy guy.
• Song you should listen to:

day51.

• People I saw: Keith Christiansen (my new boss!) and a bunch of people in my ward.
• Things I did: I went to my new job to get trained yay! Then I came home and made brownies and practiced my guitar cause I performed at my singles ward talent show tonight. It was pretty fun!
• Something I learned: To be happy, make others happy.
• Something I appreciated: My trials that make me stronger.
• Song you should listen to:

day50.

• People I saw: People at church and ward prayer and stuff!
• Things I did: I went to church and ward prayer. I also organized almost my whole room! That means going through a lot of stuff that's been packed away for some time. Oh and I practiced my guitar and stuff.
• Something I learned: Music is really really cooool. Okay I already knew that.
• Something I appreciated: music. Have I said that one before? Music.
• Song you should listen to:

day49.

• People I saw: I don't think i saw anyone today actually.
• Things I did: I moved stuff. All. Day. From 9 a.m. til like 7 p.m. And I still have lots to do!
• Something I learned: Furniture is really heavy?
• Something I appreciated: Dollies.
• Song you should listen to:

day48.

• People I saw: Samuel Jamison.
• Things I did: I accidentally slept til 10:00. I went to my piano performance class then took a math test. I played my guitar in the basement of our new house. It's a big tile room that's way echo-y right now with nothing in there so it sounded way cool! So then I made Sam come over and hang out with me for a couple hours or so. He helped me burn my debit card (pictured below) and then I made him listen to me play and sing some more. Then we played "would you rather." iIkept moving stuff into my new room after he left.
• Something I learned: The origination of a certain swear word that starts with "s".
• Something I appreciated: How funny my family is. Seriously, they're so freakin funny.
• Song you should listen to (because being a piano major I'm starting to love classical music again):

day47.

• People I saw: Joey Brennan, Carissa Kleinlein.
• Things I did: School and piano. Applied for a job. Visited Joey at work for a sec. Went to watch my singles ward boys basketball with Carissa. Moved more of my stuff into our new house.
• Something I learned: I'm not the one who has changed.
• Something I appreciated: Nachos. mmmmm.
• Song you should listen to:

day46.

• People I saw: Shaun, Reuel, Nancy Allred.
• Things I did: I practiced the piano then went to choir and my piano lesson.Ii went to Reuel's and we did math homework for like 6 hours.. with an hour break to Starbucks inbetween. I hate math. Oh and bathroom pictures are good every now and then, right?
• Something I learned: I AM SO HAPPY.
• Something I appreciated: the rain.
• Song you should listen to:

day45.

• People I saw: Shalem, Reuel, Shaun.
• Things I did: I went to school, Taco Time with my family, the DI, some consignment stores with my mom, back to school, then to subway. Oh by the way I really love my new "happiness" necklace, even though the "h" is cut off in my picture! Oh and I wasn't going to mention this but I got a random Valentine's kiss today. It was so weird and unexpected but I won't lie and say I didn't like it :)
• Something I learned: I just said this "I just love my life sometimes, even though it's so gay right now" hahaha.
• Something I appreciated: Subway cookies. Oh my gosh so good every time.
• Song you should listen to, and only cause I'm listening to it right now (been listening to a lot of songs from the early 2000s. Don't judge me):

day44.

• People I saw: Kelsey and Rebecca, Brent Dean, my old coworker Dan, Adam Hine, my family.
• Things I did: I went to the mall, then met Brent for lunch at PF Changs. I stopped by BYU to say bye to Adam then I left town. I stopped in Beaver for some cheese and ice cream from the cheese factory. Then I got home to St. George and helped my family move some stuff into our new house.
• Something I learned: I can't escape from all of my fears.
• Something I appreciated: Freee lunch. Oh and the waiter who ran outside after us with the Forever 21 bag I accidentally left... oops.
• Song you should listen to:

day43.

Whoops sorry I never did this yesterday.

• People I saw: My old Provo YSA ward, Kelsey Amanda and Rebecca of course, Tyler, Sarah Britt, Josh Wilson, Chad Rhoades, Steven Squire.
• Things I did: I went to my old ward and bore my testimony! Then we had Josh come over and we made food and stuff. We just kinda hung out. I visited Chad and Steven at Glenwood. We went to Jamal's and watched The Walking Dead.
• Something I learned: Everyone has a choice to make in every situation. There's nothing I can do about it if someone makes a choice that affects me and it wasn't the choice I'd hoped. But I just have to live with it.
• Something I appreciated: My friends haven't changed.
• Song you should listen to:

day42.

• People I saw: Brandon Johnson, Mitch Payne, Kelsey Barber, Leeland Woodard, Amanda Dayley, Rebecca Barsdorf, Adam Hine, Kurt Henderson, I think that's it...
• Things I did: I went to IHOP with Brandon this morning for breakfast and got chocolate chip pancakes and stuff. Then I came back and showered and got ready. Then I picked up Leeland and we visited Kelsey and Rebecca at work. Then Amanda and I got pizza like old times. When Becca and Kels got off work we all went wedding dress shopping for Kelsey and she bought her dress!!! Then Becca and Manda and I went to the Cocoa Bean. We were going to see The Vow but it was sold out gosh dang it. I secretly want a boy to take me to it anyway... so then we went to Adam's place and hung out for a bit, then went to his friend's house and played games with a bunch of people I don't know. Then we went back to Adam's and watched a movie that I slept through.
• Something I learned: I don't know where I belong yet.
• Something I appreciated: I'm so glad I got to be here to help Kels pick out her wedding dress.
• Song you should listen to:

day41.

• People I saw: Tony, Adam Hine, Kelsey Barber!!! Amanda Dayley and Rebecca Barsdorf!! and Darren and his friends.
• Things I did: Woke up early to train for the route one more time. Packed. Went to my piano performance class. Left for Provo! Kelsey didn't know I was coming so it was really fun to surprise her! I saw her real quick at my old place. Then I got picked up by Darren, my first blind date ever! We were set up by Adam. Darren took me to Guru's for dinner, 711 for slurpees, then Muse Music Cafe for the songwriters contest. He was a great date!
• Something I learned: I'm not attracted to blonds in particular. BUT there are always exceptions. PS Darren isn't blond, this has nothing to do with him. He was very cute :)
• Something I appreciated: My old roommates letting me stay here :)
• Song you should listen to:

day40.

• People I saw: Shalem, Reuel, Tanner, Carissa.
• Things I did: School and piano. I went with Carissa to watch the boys in our ward play basketball. They played against the Red Cliffs ward, so that's why I saw Tanner (my favorite cousin) there!
• Something I learned: Take. it. slow.
• Something I appreciated: Donuts!
• Song you should listen to:

day39.

• People I saw: Tony, Sam, Shaun, Reuel.
• Things I did: I woke up early and went along with Tony again on his paper route; this time I drove. Then I went to the bank and got a copy of my bank statement. I went to the college and saw Sam in the parking lot so we talked for a while. I went to the records desk and got an official transcript. I went home and ate some breakfast and stuff. then I went to campus and practiced the piano, and afterwards had my lesson. Then Sam and I went to the DMV to get our licenses renewed together. After we got back we decided to go to Sonic to get happy hour drinks! It was an awesome day so we had our windows rolled down and fun music playing, and so we agreed that it was our first day of summer. So fun!
• Something I learned: well I realized that I'm super excited to see what happens with the election this year..
• Something I appreciated: being able to drive places. Seriously, I'm so grateful I've always had a car.
• Song you should listen to:

day38.

• People I saw: Shalem and his friend Brad. Joey. And can we just assume from here on out it's a given that I see my family every day? As well as the normal people I see in my classes and stuff? Okay.
• Things I did: I woke up early and went on a paper route with Tony so that I will know his route when he goes out of town cause I'm subbing for him. Then I went to math class. I went to Swig with Shalem and Brad. I went to choir, then I got Subway. I ate my sandwich at Joey's work and chatted with him and stuff. I studied for and took my Spanish test. I came home and ate dinner. I went back to Joey's work to have him cut my bangs.
• Something I learned: I over-think things waaaay too much. Way way too much.
• Something I appreciated: Joey for cutting my bangs!
• And I'm adding a new one - Song you should listen to:

day37.

people i saw: chris richards, people in my ward, people at school, desi's friends rodney and gabby.
things i did: went to pizza hut for lunch. went to choir. practiced piano. did some homework. went to FHE. went and saw the house we're moving into.
something i learned: i'm an adult so i can't afford to be stupid.
something i appreciated: good fortune.

day36.

• People I saw: Miles, Ian, Carlos, my favorite cousin again!
• Things I did: I watched Tangled by myself. Then I went to church which was really really good. Then I came home and ate chicken wings and stuff with my family. After that I went to a CES fireside given by Elder Bednar of the quorum of the 12 apostles of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It was absolutely amazing, and I am so so glad I went. Then I went straight to ward prayer. There were tons of people there!
• Something I learned: I learned so many things I don't even know where to start. I guess the biggest thing I learned is that if we want the answer to something, we have to go and find it out for ourselves. The key is knowing how to go about looking, and that requires much patience, faith, and most importantly, action. I also learned that the blessings in our lives are directly proportional to how much we are willing to do what it takes and then by the actions we take.
• Something I appreciated: Elder Bednar's fireside of course. And at ward prayer they had my favorite cookies, peanut butter blossoms... mmmmm.

Oh and by the way, a thanks to Carlos for boosting my confidence today by going out of his way to tell me that my song (the better me) I posted a link to on Facebook is really good and that he thinks I have a really good voice :) it's always nice to hear from people other than my family. Especially when someone brings it up randomly :)

I'm super focused when I drive. I couldn't even look at the camera, sorry.
I really just had to take a picture and get it over with. Windows down like always, messy hair, and chapped lips. Oh yes.

day35.

people i saw: joey, kyle, josh.
things i did: oh it's a long list of CLEANING.
i cleaned out all the sticky goo inside our big freezer, went through and threw away tons of plastic bags that didn't need to be in there. i cleaned my and my sister's bathroom, cleaned my room, vacuumed our whole basement, dusted our basement and my parent's bedroom, loaded and unloaded the dishwasher, cleaned part of my parent's bathroom, shoveled the dog poop in our backyard, started packing some stuff, and i think that's it.
i also went to a play at the college with joey.
something i learned: there are very few things in my life that have not turned out too good to be true. those things are the lds gospel, and my family. that's it.
something i appreciated: well i appreciated that joey picked me up and opened my door and stuff.

day34.

people i saw: nicholas demarcus and his friends.
things i did: dropped off my car to get the mirror replaced, practiced piano, went to my piano performance class. i was interviewed by nicholas and his friends for a documentary they're doing across the whole country. went for a walk with my mom, kirsten, connor, and parker. helped make dinner. it's tasha's birthday so we had cake.
something i learned: you CAN make a difference, even if it's just a little one. a smile, positive attitude, and the willingness to go out of your way for other people will in turn make them happy, and the whole atmosphere can change. plus, no one has any room to be mean to you when you're nothing but nice!
something i appreciated: matt.
oh by the way.. my best friend, kelsey barber, got engaged tonight to tyler lythgoe! congratulations, love you.

day33.

people i saw: my favorite cousin!
things i did: school and piano. went to village inn for lunch with my mom, dad, kirsten, connor, and parker. went to target with connor.
something i learned: well i'm going to say this is something i realized. living at home is 100x more boring than living with on my own was. i hate not having my freedom! i just wanna go places when i want to.
something i appreciated: pie.

day32.

people i saw: michelle bacon.
things i did: practiced the piano. went to choir and my piano lesson. went to my cousin's house to find out where he's going on his mission. ecuador!
something i learned: i have talent. i've never believed anyone who's ever said i have talent on the piano until today. and the only reason i believed her is because she's brilliant and teaching piano majors is her profession. only reason.
something i appreciated: home-cooked meals. freak yeah for losing like 12 pounds since i moved home!
lyrics:
may it be your journey on
to light the day
when the night is overcome
you may rise to find the sun
(lord of the rings. may it be: enya.)